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A couple more minutes to 2010 :D

There's so many things I wanna say, but one emotion can generally sum up 2009: THANKFUL (((:

I'm seriously so thankful to everyone and everything; I feel so blessed: I have got a lovely family and out of the world awesome friends, seriously, there's nth more I can possibly ask for ((:

To my family and friends, thankyou for being there for me and supporting me through whatever and braving all the darkest storms with me (((((((: LOVE YOU GUYS :D

I will work hard in this new yr, and do my best. Live life to the fullest and with no regrets - new yr resolution.

CHEERS TO ALL ((((((: Here's wishing everybody a wonderful new yr, filled with the best things <3

My friend was talking to me abt dreams last night before I went to bed - this prob explains the extremely absurd but cute dream I had last night (:

I don't rmb how it started, or how it ended, for that matter, all i can rmb is that throughout the whole duration of the dream i was holding two spicy drumlets (yaaa those from pizza hut), one in each hand, walking through some dark cave. Then halfway through the lights went out (omg i think the light was eminating from the pinnacle of the two drumlets, like torches, siao alr siao alr.

So the lights went out and I was like, ohshit, chaba.

(okay if you're still in the dark and wondering to urself, who the hell is chaba, you must be rly slow. HAHAHAHA chaba is a ghost from the thai movie COMING SOON. she is good friends with me, but even better friends with zhenyang, but she is v v v v v scary cus she died when some villagers hanged her. ohyeaa she gorges out little kids' eyes also)

so im like, die chaba coming alr. (this one is mokzy's fault cus he always scares me abt chaba. hahahahaha okay maybe its karma also cus i helped mokzy scare meiting on 282 last night, sian.)

okay rmb im in some cave? so the air's pretty musty and all that. soon i get goosebumps and i feel the temp drop )))))))): my heart pounds faster cus i know chaba is really, truly, coming soon.

then as i walk ahead in the darkness, my face hits sth, sth....hanging.

die alr die alr, i tell myself.

the light from my drumlet torches rekindles at this point in time, and i realise i've walked into a pair of, dare i say it, hanging feet.

okay so we all know feet would naturally be connected to a body, then a head.

so i start looking upwards, and my oh my oh my oh my, there hung chaba, in her full glory.

somehow she didn't seem that scary hahaha maybe cus i forgot how she looked like alr.

her eyes were almost popping out of her eyesockets and she was pointing to me, like directly.

somehow, i was not as scared as i thought i would be, rather, i felt like helping her, getting her out of that uncomfy position, poor thing.

THEN THE EPIC PART COME ALR.

She opened her mouth to speak. omg in the movie she spoke thai, somehow in my dream she spoke cantonese?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Eh, gnor oi larry fazzle, chaba started.

I'm like, she wants WHAT?

she said it again, this time with better enunciation,

gnor oi (I want) CURRY ZAZZLE

I did not realise the hilarity of what she told me until I woke up. After she said that I vaguely rmb searching ard the cave for curry zazzle but alas, it remained elusive.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA

I WOKE UP KIND OF LAUGHING TO MYSELF, FREAKING FUNNY.

Now im not scared of chaba anymore cus each time i think of her i think of curry zazzle which is rly yummy(i had it for lunch with nana mt and zy ytd!) HAHAHAHAHA mok can't scare me nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

:DDDDDDDDDDDDD anw i just got home from breakfast with my parents at this famous porridge stall near my sis's sch, ah chiang porridge or sth. (: v v v v v v nice, i dont rly like porridge but the grub they sell there is rly, beyond words.

anyw all the best to NGBEEBEE, her first day at work today! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD WHEEEEEEEEEEEE you're so capable lor, doing admin for swensens is like, underemployment.

hahahahahaha alright, i shld rly go finish packing my rm now :D

chaba chaba, zazzling down the street~ HAHAHAHAHAHA

I AM SO FREAKING GLAD TO BE BACK HOME ((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

HOME IS REALLY WHERE THE HEART IS *inserts big big hearts here*

Hahahaha the past few wks have been really really...eventful. haha :D

I haven't been in Singapore for the most part, but I guess I needed the getaway (((: It kind of feels surreal, reality only hit me ytd when I was trying to fill up this survey form for my NZ tour guide and my handwriting totally sucked - i realised i hadn't held a pen(and written more than a couple of liners) since 30 November hahahahaha (:

ALVLS ARE OVER AND DONE WITH, PEOPLE :D

First there was HK, with 7 others from my lovely, lovely class :D omg words cannot describe how much fun the trip was, the lasting memories etched, the strong friendships forged (: It was rly a fantastic 5 days or so, albeit tiring. (: i think everyone has similar sentiments :D go to yanqi's blog (FINALLY SHE UPDATES) at http://www.wahaha-xo.blogspot.com for a narrative recount :D Thankyou you guys for the lovely time :D

Then there was PROM (: awesome time (((((((((((: took photos with like a million people, many of whom i treasure very very dearly (:

I missed 4A CHALET again and I feel so terrible ): each time there's chalet or some outing something crops up and its like so frustratingly coincidental ): up to the extent i feel bad each time i sms kwanki to tell him i can't make it ): sorry guys i will rly rly make up for the lost times! GOT YOU GUYS STUFF FROM NZ (:

Leon and Mark! (: hahahahahaha i just talked the leon over the phone ytd (: there's much more freedom in NS than i imagined so yay (: take care you guys, we love and miss you back here (:

to zhihui shoukee and lichan too :D you guys jiayou!!!! coming out soon for the festive season yepp! :D

NZ :D i just got back from my 7 day tour with farmilie to NZ, south island ((((: VERY VERY VERY MEMORABLE :D pictures speak a thousand words so go fb and see hahahahaha :D all in all, the trip was rly fantastic :D very different from any vacation i've ever had because of the laxing feel you get the moment you step on NZ land :D everybody's very relaxed and comfortable and you hardly see pekcek-ness in NZ (: random passers-by can wave hello and pat you on the back as you walk ard (: the culture's very very different and sometimes i wish singaporeans could be more like newzealanders - manners and all. we rly need to improve on tt :/ :DDDDDDDDDD AND YES GOT LOADS OF GIFTS BACK for everyoneeeee 6V, FC :D

hahahahahaha :D now its gonna be pretty busy cus of the stuff that needs to be chionged (:

PERSONAL STATEMENT :D applying to LSE and warwick (:
GOLF CMON CMON HANDICAP TEST.
DRIVERS' LICENSE!
6V STUFF: XMAS LIQUOR PARTY, MS CHEN'S HOUSE, CLS CHALET
FC SLUMBERRRR PARTY/MS WONG'S FC TREAT (:
PACK MY ROOM
GET A JOB
(:

wheeee life is very very good (:

I'm really affected by the fact that all my friends (the guys) are eventually going to go NS and I won't be able to see them as often as I do now )))):

As much as I'm happy for them, WHEEEE YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO SERVE THE NATION (GOODJOB JIAYOU) and HURRAY MUSCLE-BUILDING FTW, I can't stand the thought of, in a way, losing them.

Some of my closest friends are guys, hahahahahaha. My platonic lover, my confidante, just to name a few. While we say, its alright, as long as we keep in contact! the guys will still be out in the wkend whattttt. :D

idk, its always easier said than done ):

I was lamenting abt this to zhenyang last night, and he was telling me that human are extremely adaptable creatures and sooner or later, that 'hole in my heart' will be mended.

I used to believe that too lah, but I'm kind of getting tired of making new friends (I have quite alot of friends alr), i just really want to hold on tightly to those i know and love. I really don't want any more friendships to fade, as I go about building new ones.

Okay that's just what i want, it'll nvr happen.

Anyway I promise i'll rly make the effort to keep these friendships strong (: I really love you guys and when you all are in NS pls rmb to JIAYOU AND DONT EVER GIVE UP OKAY (: you're not alone and we all love you back at home and when you come home, we (the girls) will be holding up banners welcoming you home (must tell me when u booking out and where) okayyy if the other girls dun wanna do it i'll be there you can count on it.

Take care, you and you. I'll miss you guys so so much, words can't even describe how I'm feeling right now. LOVE YOU ALL.

I'm so frustrated by the way everything is turning out.

I feel stressed beyond words, and it doesn't help that I've got freaking strict parents who ground me after Alvls cus I need to stay home more, who believe 'wilding' my time away isn't the way to go.

You of all people should know that.

Do you think I would purposely take it out on you? Be a bad friend? Do you honestly think I'ld rather be doing something else? Do you think I want to be a disappointment?

Now I don't rly know what to do or what to say, I'm just so sad you're leaving, and mad that after all this while you still can't understand me enough to see things from my point of view. I'm so tired.

:D the past wk or so has been so so so so so busy and fulfilling and thank God for every moment of it :D thank God for all my lovely friends, and family, and level mates, and pals, and guardian angels (:

Right after As, my class CHIONGED to HK :D we had 5 Days 4 Nights of FUN :D I rly can't elaborate much because every single moment was so memorableand awesome; recounting it would understate the entire state of emotions of the trip (:

pictures speak so much more than words, so I've uploaded the pics on fb alr hahahaha feel free to see :D

So much has been forged, discoveries made, friendships strengthened (: thankyou guys for the awesome time in HK ((((((: and of course, thankyou mama and baba for trusting me enough to let me go for the trip :D

Right so ytd was PROM :D

hahahahahaha omg leon and i were up on stage doing the MCC (most compatible couple) stint it was so so so embarrassing HAHA, i've been up on stage a great many times but this has got to be the most nerve wrecking and paiseh time ever! but still we had fun and thats whats most impt :D

took pics with so so many people from hc, and nj (hahahaha same venue, same night!)

im rly glad for everything but im so so so drained right now :/ off to bathe and then to bed ((((:

im so thankful for everything ((: